As if we're dating...

The way he texts me, it's like he's already my... Gah, say it for me.
It was like every 5 minutes, he asks me where am I.
I can't help smiling and laughing alone everytime I receive his sarcastic replies like 'Eto, nakahiga, tabi ka gusto mo, para may mayakap ako.', 'Bakit? Namiss mo ko 'no.', 'Sorry sa late rep, wag ka mag alala di na kita malilimutan', and some other stuffs like that, Ok, I know those are all dead cheesy, but here, just imagine your crush or someone you like sending you text messages like that, ask yourself, 'Kikiligin ba ako?', Hell, wag ka nang pakipot. :)
And yeah, he tells me if he's going out somewhere so that in case he wouldn't be able to reply my text messages, I'll know why.

Oh god, I love this guy.

Yes, chemicals DO collide.

I haven't updated this blog for uhm... Yea, I don't even know how long...
But here, today's been a bad bad day for me, I wanna cry, but at the same time, I'm too shy to show how I feel, I wanna tell him that he's the only one who could make me happy at this time when I'm having some problems with my Skitch, but then, I decided not to do it, and now, he's fuckin' wondering what is that something I wanna tell him about.

Sadao's been so nice to me, we've been texting for a few days so far, he's pretty sweet. He knows that I like him (After my friends encouraged him to sit next to me so that we could have a picture together, and that happened TWICE. December 8 and 18. Oh fuck.)
He even asked me why I'm uhm, pretty shy when he's just there standing in front of me, and what did I tell him? A lie. I lied. I told him it's because of my sister, but nah, it's not even close to that, it's because I always think that I'll NEVER EVER BE GOOD ENOUGH FOR HIM.
Then, today, while I was out in the mall to hang out, I got to talk to him again, rather get to text him again, I lied about what I wanna tell him, I don't even know why I did that stupid thing.

Ok, I know you'll probably never get to read this, but whatever, here's what I wanna tell you.
'You know what, you're awesome. You're sweet and you got a sense of humor, that's why I like you. Everytime you beep my phone up, I'll take an Unlimited Text subscription, that's how much I love you, yes, LOVE. I know, that's a strong word, and I'm proud of using that of what I feel about you. But hey, I'm not assuming that you'll someday ask me out, I don't even think that's possible, but here's the thing, the fact that you're texting me everytime you have the unlimited text subscription is enough to make me fuckin' contented, I'm not waiting for you to ask me out (Though I'll still freak out if you'll do that), for short, I'm not asking you to give me something in return, I'm not asking you to give me something equal with what I give to you, Oh fuck that's deep.

And just a note, this is my first fuckin' time to have a sweet convo with someone I like, or love.



MICHAELO ANGELO SADAO SUGAWARA <3>

Not much of a great weekend...

Typhoon Ondoy, no cellphone again, no electricity for one day, and my lame prediction that I won't be able to watch Katy Perry and Boys Like Girls this Saturday (Oct. 3), fuck yeah, I'm sucking this.

Dear Typhoon Ondoy, get the fuck out of this country, I mean, world. I wanna kill you with kindness.
People, please pray for the typhoon victims. I'm glad to see some of these band dudes (e.g. lovely Alex Gaskarth and fuckin' Benjamin Madden) tweeting about donating on American Red Cross for the typhoon victims here in Philippines, I was in shock when I knew that Ondoy was such a HUGE calamity that some well-known people in other countries are offering some help in their own ways, I'm lovin' it. If only I had like lots of money, I'd be happy to donate a huge amount of money, but yea, the truth is the truth, I'm not rich, I don't have lots of money. Fuck yeah.

Dear any random high quality mobile phone (too much, yea right), please let me have you, let me own you, you're such a beauty, I'd even marry you. I love you, live with me. I'm halfway there baby, I'm gonna own you forever. I'll never let you go. You'll always be with me, you'll be my best friend.

Dear Meralco, never fuck with me again. ktnxbye.

Dear lame prediction of me not watching Katy Perry and Boys Like Girls live this Saturday, please don't you ever come true. Have faith in me, dearie. Let me watch my favorite band live and try meeting them. Make my lame and fuckery dream come true. Kill yourself (oh yeah, make my dream come true first, but yea, do it by killing yourself... whatever)

FUCK.

I REALLLY REALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLY HATE MY SISTERRR!!!!! X-(

Sherwin :)

First, Sherwin's my former crush.

So yea, he just came back to school from Canada, after like 2 months, or more. I remember the time when he was just about to leave, I thought it was hard to move on, but then, it wasn't hard at all ('cause yea, Lemmor came, it was easier for me to forget about Sherwin). Then I lost my feelings for him (Sherwin), and so yea, I just focused on thinking on how will my relationship with Lemmor will start (but hey, I'm not asking him out).

Then now, Sherwin came back, I think my feelings for him are coming back, and I really have no idea on what will I do now... I kept on thinking, 'how about Lemmor?', 'how about Gerard?'

FUCKKKKK.

B, L, A ,C

Tang ina niyong echoserang gago kayo!

Go die. Go to hell, you freaked out insecure cunt fucking bitches!

Hell yeah, I'm obsessed.

Note: I don't care how many times I've posted those photos of him wearing that blue plaid shirt. 'Eye to eye we need no words at all'

SOBRANG CHEEEEEEEEEEEEEESYYYYYYYYYYY!

Ok, now that's what I call personal. I'm posting his pictures here since there are only a few people who reads this blog, or know this blog.

I bleed red lips you're unbelievable :)

Lemmor <3

Raphalittes :/

Ironically, this post won't be about Lemmor. This is about my best friends Ariane and Angelica, back in 6th grade, I mean last year (yea, I know I'm acting like I'm 16 or something) so yea...

ARIANE :)

I miss her A LOT, and I mean that. We've been classmates just for one year, and although a year seems long enough for us to get to know each other very well, I still think we need some more years of being in the same class. Before, I thought she's one of those girls, but then, I realized I shouldn't just discriminate her like that. She's probably one of the nicest people I've ever known, and met. She's always been there for me, yes there were some misunderstandings and shits, but I think we never took it too seriously, and that's what I love about her, she makes me laugh all the time and she's just HILARIOUS :))

ANGELICA :)
I miss her A LOT too! She's like the clown of the crowd (yeah, corny) but whatever... She makes the best jokes ever. I remember the reddening of her face just because of laughing so hard and making me laugh and smile while I was crying because of some certain reasons. She's really cool, I love her, and I miss her so bad. I wanna see her again!
and yea, LUCKIEST GIRL EVER, she'll watch the Katy Perry and BOYSLIKEGIRLS concert for fuckin' FREE :/ Damn.

So yea, they're my funniest friends ever! I hope I can see them as soon as possible. No one can replace you guys! :)

His presence is enough to make me smile...

I know I'm acting like a shitty fangirl who stalks random bands everywhere, but I don't care at all. K, first of all, I'm not a stalker, I'm not stalking anyone (just in case you're thinking I am), but I just miss Lemmor a lot. I haven't seen him for almost a week, and I hate it. I think for what I feel for him right now, I see him more than just my crush, and I've never felt anything like this before... Coincidence? No one knows.

I remember during the Acquaintance Party, he sang the acoustic version of Crazy For You, and yea, that time, I still don't know him, but right after he looked into my eyes while he was singing the line 'I'm crazy for you', I felt weird. I felt something different, then a few minutes later, I found out he was just sitting behind me, so I looked at him, and surprisingly, he's looking at me too. Fuckkkk I'm inlove.

So Lemmor, I know you'll never be able to read this (or not) but I just want you to know that I miss you. Everything I submit on Blogsecret & Random people's formsprings are all about you. Yes, you can call me crazy and obsessed but all I know is that I'm being like that because of you...

and here comes the part you'll probably hate the most:
I'M CRAZY FOR YOU.

K, thanks bye.
PS. Lemmor, please be more visible. I wanna see you everyday. You don't know how big my smile is and how fast my heart beats everytime I see you, you don't know and you never will. No one knows, even me.

Hello, Blogspot/Blogger :)

I made a blog here! A new blog :) I actually have my own one on Tumblr, and for this one, I think this would be my personal blog. I'll blog about personal experiences and stories. All personal, but not too personal for internet :)