I just had the best Valentine's Day ever.

So yesterday was Valentine's Day, and I think it was my best one. At first, I thought I'm gonna spend the day in the usual way, like you know, messing around the internet, soundtripping, and other stuffs like that. Ok, so when he sent me a text message, at first I was having second thoughts if I'm gonna answer it or not, but oh well, even Chas or Cardo can't stop me from replying. So we talked about a lot of things, the promenade, dating, and some other stuffs I'm too lazy to put here. Then, it was like 3pm when we started texting again and talked about some things I don't wanna mention here, haha but he asked me if I'm gonna miss him once he'll leave and go to college, well, I said 'Of course' but I lied when I reasoned it out, so yeah, he asked me if that's my real reason, then uh, yeah I got no choice but to tell him everything.

Then, I think it was 10 or 11 or s/t when texted me again for the third time, this time I think we got a better conversation, I was blushing while he was sending me those non-nonsensical text messages, oh my quality god I am in love with this guy.
And uhm yeah, one of the things I love about him is that everytime he says goodnight to me, he texts it with a kiss smiley on it. Gah <3

As if we're dating...

The way he texts me, it's like he's already my... Gah, say it for me.
It was like every 5 minutes, he asks me where am I.
I can't help smiling and laughing alone everytime I receive his sarcastic replies like 'Eto, nakahiga, tabi ka gusto mo, para may mayakap ako.', 'Bakit? Namiss mo ko 'no.', 'Sorry sa late rep, wag ka mag alala di na kita malilimutan', and some other stuffs like that, Ok, I know those are all dead cheesy, but here, just imagine your crush or someone you like sending you text messages like that, ask yourself, 'Kikiligin ba ako?', Hell, wag ka nang pakipot. :)
And yeah, he tells me if he's going out somewhere so that in case he wouldn't be able to reply my text messages, I'll know why.

Oh god, I love this guy.

Yes, chemicals DO collide.

I haven't updated this blog for uhm... Yea, I don't even know how long...
But here, today's been a bad bad day for me, I wanna cry, but at the same time, I'm too shy to show how I feel, I wanna tell him that he's the only one who could make me happy at this time when I'm having some problems with my Skitch, but then, I decided not to do it, and now, he's fuckin' wondering what is that something I wanna tell him about.

Sadao's been so nice to me, we've been texting for a few days so far, he's pretty sweet. He knows that I like him (After my friends encouraged him to sit next to me so that we could have a picture together, and that happened TWICE. December 8 and 18. Oh fuck.)
He even asked me why I'm uhm, pretty shy when he's just there standing in front of me, and what did I tell him? A lie. I lied. I told him it's because of my sister, but nah, it's not even close to that, it's because I always think that I'll NEVER EVER BE GOOD ENOUGH FOR HIM.
Then, today, while I was out in the mall to hang out, I got to talk to him again, rather get to text him again, I lied about what I wanna tell him, I don't even know why I did that stupid thing.

Ok, I know you'll probably never get to read this, but whatever, here's what I wanna tell you.
'You know what, you're awesome. You're sweet and you got a sense of humor, that's why I like you. Everytime you beep my phone up, I'll take an Unlimited Text subscription, that's how much I love you, yes, LOVE. I know, that's a strong word, and I'm proud of using that of what I feel about you. But hey, I'm not assuming that you'll someday ask me out, I don't even think that's possible, but here's the thing, the fact that you're texting me everytime you have the unlimited text subscription is enough to make me fuckin' contented, I'm not waiting for you to ask me out (Though I'll still freak out if you'll do that), for short, I'm not asking you to give me something in return, I'm not asking you to give me something equal with what I give to you, Oh fuck that's deep.

And just a note, this is my first fuckin' time to have a sweet convo with someone I like, or love.



MICHAELO ANGELO SADAO SUGAWARA <3>

Not much of a great weekend...

Typhoon Ondoy, no cellphone again, no electricity for one day, and my lame prediction that I won't be able to watch Katy Perry and Boys Like Girls this Saturday (Oct. 3), fuck yeah, I'm sucking this.

Dear Typhoon Ondoy, get the fuck out of this country, I mean, world. I wanna kill you with kindness.
People, please pray for the typhoon victims. I'm glad to see some of these band dudes (e.g. lovely Alex Gaskarth and fuckin' Benjamin Madden) tweeting about donating on American Red Cross for the typhoon victims here in Philippines, I was in shock when I knew that Ondoy was such a HUGE calamity that some well-known people in other countries are offering some help in their own ways, I'm lovin' it. If only I had like lots of money, I'd be happy to donate a huge amount of money, but yea, the truth is the truth, I'm not rich, I don't have lots of money. Fuck yeah.

Dear any random high quality mobile phone (too much, yea right), please let me have you, let me own you, you're such a beauty, I'd even marry you. I love you, live with me. I'm halfway there baby, I'm gonna own you forever. I'll never let you go. You'll always be with me, you'll be my best friend.

Dear Meralco, never fuck with me again. ktnxbye.

Dear lame prediction of me not watching Katy Perry and Boys Like Girls live this Saturday, please don't you ever come true. Have faith in me, dearie. Let me watch my favorite band live and try meeting them. Make my lame and fuckery dream come true. Kill yourself (oh yeah, make my dream come true first, but yea, do it by killing yourself... whatever)

FUCK.

I REALLLY REALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLY HATE MY SISTERRR!!!!! X-(

Sherwin :)

First, Sherwin's my former crush.

So yea, he just came back to school from Canada, after like 2 months, or more. I remember the time when he was just about to leave, I thought it was hard to move on, but then, it wasn't hard at all ('cause yea, Lemmor came, it was easier for me to forget about Sherwin). Then I lost my feelings for him (Sherwin), and so yea, I just focused on thinking on how will my relationship with Lemmor will start (but hey, I'm not asking him out).

Then now, Sherwin came back, I think my feelings for him are coming back, and I really have no idea on what will I do now... I kept on thinking, 'how about Lemmor?', 'how about Gerard?'

FUCKKKKK.

B, L, A ,C

Tang ina niyong echoserang gago kayo!

Go die. Go to hell, you freaked out insecure cunt fucking bitches!